Waiting for Peace Corps is Like....

I know I probably sound like I'm complaining about all this... but it really is hard to explain how horrible this is. Let me try this:

My sister told me something about a month ago after I had been telling her how I was feeling while waiting for my Lesotho departure.

I was trying to explain how long the application process had been (about 7 months), so I'd kinda already been preparing for a long time....that I was excited, but kinda anxious....that I had done all the research I could to be as best prepared as I could... it was all I ever wanted and could think about, but it seemed so long away and each day was taking forever....I couldn't sleep some nights because I couldn't stop thinking about it....all day long I had thoughts of Lesotho and Sesotho running through my head to the point that it was annoying....I just wanted it to hurry up and get here....

Well, she told me that it sounded exactly like the last two months of being pregnant, when a woman has had this thing growing inside for her for 7 months, watching it develop and getting ever the more attached to it.....she is excited about the baby, but also a bit nervous...she has researched and read and talked about it constantly, but every day leading up to it is slowly dragging on....she's so tired of the waiting and she just can't wait to hurry up and have that baby....

So, now, imagine being in the last 3 weeks of your pregnancy, and the doctor says "Sorry, you can't have this baby yet. In fact, you are going to have to keep on holding that baby in there for 4 more months". Doesn't sound like fun, huh?

Don't forget the part that you quit your job b/c you were 8 months pregnant and about to have a baby.....or that you told everyone you know that a baby would be here in a month....or that you cleaned out your closets and got rid of half your stuff to make room for the baby.....or that you've spent all kinds of money the past few months buying things for the baby....or that you have your bags packed and ready for the trip to the hospital...

Oh well, don't worry, you'll have your baby....just not for another 4 months.

Sure, when the baby finally gets here after the 4 extra months, you will probably love it just as much as you would have earlier. It's your baby, of course you'll love it and you'll be super excited when it finally comes! You'll love it and take care of it and it will be the center of your universe.

In the meantime though, I thinks it is perfectly understandable to be a little angry at the doctor (and perhaps baby) for having to stick it out and suffer for 4 more months. I mean, who wants to be pregnant for 13 months? And who wants to deal with the hassle of rearranging your life b/c your baby unexpectedly got stuck on its way out. Nobody can argue that it will be an easy 4 months.....